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Hello (:

31 December 2011

i cannot believe my family just went to bed @.@ this new year's eve is even more dreary now. i mean, we're in malaysia and ppl are releasing fireworks from their homes. and here i am in a room with sleeping pplz ;A; how depressing can it be??? oh, and twitter is overcapacity :s anyone wanna chat with me on fb for 30min? D: Oh, and did i mention that i finished reading the bk that i brought? :( AND THE WORST THING IS THAT IT'S AN INCOMPLETE SERIES D: woe is me (pls pardon the caps, phone blogger be glitchy)


So, seeing as i won't be in SG for the grand New Year's midnight, and thus will not be able to welcome 2012 in SG or on this blog, i shall do my New Year's Resolutions and whatnot now. (:

2011

Was one tiring year. While 2010's PW put me in an emotional whirlwind, 2011 was more of...how do i describe this...seesaw? Not too sure.

So what i really hated first, because i want them to disappear fastfast [:

- All the crappy superficial bonds [Have i ever mentioned? I absolutely can't stand superficiality. IIRC, that's an ENFP trait]
- A levels. (Alright, maybe not so much hate, but it was pretty draggy. And so was studying for it @_@)
- All the double standards :/ [I'm sure i have my hypocritical moments as well, so i shall deal with that too]
- Boys. [Ok, just to set things straight, i am straight. And i do not hate guys, per se. Just that, as Jiajia/Dilly/Aza once pointed out, whenever guys get involved, friendships are ruined :/]
- Slootiness. :X (slightly linked to the above)
- Blackhole-ing [Not hating the person, just the behaviour, thus the 'ing']
- Self-victimising.
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So there aren't really that many things that went awful in 2011...just a huge thing mainly :S But they will disappear with the wiiiiiiind~

So awesome things in 2011? Plenty.

- PP <3
- Sistahs! <3 [All the small/big/short/tall/human/nonhuman/spiky/slimy/oily/cool/retarded/etc ones :D]
- PW A ^^v
- Youth Alpha
- MasterLife [And the mentors that came with both this and Youth Alpha]
- Food across TJ :X
- TEKKEN!!!
- Fri Night Nua Group
- Botanics
- Brewerkz
- Bedok Point food and Du Yi's awesome cheap stationery $_$
- Dress outings, random outings
- Xue's surprise and then camwhoring at one of the Tampine's malls xD
- NYAA Camp (and the whole process, which would seep into 2010 as well)
- Flea Market biznezz
- Planning for PBG [even though that makes me emoz now :(]
- Nua Hotel :P
- Purty nailz
- Prayer before exams
- Mission trip to Karimun
- YPM camp
- Pre-Prom [because #Truefacts: It was more fun than the actual prom :X]
- Frasers/Malacca trip [because the nuaness and freedom was admittedly fun]
- Ice Skating outings [All of them, cos skating is fun and so there]
- Prenz that actually grew closer rather than drifted :X (This is to accommodate the non-sistahs xD)
- Happyhappy charm :D
- Teo Heng outings :D
- A lot a lot more.

Yes, so many good things happened in 2011 that i'll definitely hold on to 2012 [:

So even though 2011 was being a pretty black and gloomy year, it was still full of awesome despite the heavy pressure. Thank you 2011 for the lessons learnt in life. I think i've matured and grown and changed over this one year. For better or for worse, it's helped made me more into the person i am.

And, because i never set resolutions that are crazily unachievable, i can safely say i achieved my 2010 resolution of growing closer to God in 2011 [:

I'm gonna carry this resolution forward to 2012, further adding that i want to understand more of what it means to serve God, and continue to help as much as i can in church :D

In addition to that:
- I'm definitely getting a job.
- I wanna travel somewhere
- Be a better person. Cos being a not-nice person is tiring and sucks :(
- SDG

^^v

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So then, because i will not be able to send out New Year messages at midnight, and sending it at 6pm is just sad :X

HAPPY NEW YEAR FRIENDS AND FRENEMIES :P HAVE A GREAT 2012 AHEAD!
(for the record, i don't believe the world will end then. But even if it does, i will still have a great 2012!~)

30 December 2011

Oh yes,

I am gonna start school on 3rd jan with the rest of the world 8Db

First time in a long while that i'm nervous and scared about school haha...excited though :D


So, i finished catching up both Naruto and Bleach ^^v

Ahh...i'd forgotten how awesome each and every character in Naruto was :X Kishimoto is really hardcore at making emo characters @_@ It was nice to see all the dead (but much-loved) characters come back to life again as well :D

Bleach...on the other hand is still pretty meh :/ never ever got to like the Fullbring characters much :/ Didn't really get the arc either...besides the whole get-Ichigo-his-powers-back-and-get-him-to-be-even-more-ownage-than-ever bit. At least when i finally caught up it was just nice at the end of the arc xD so managed to read all the exciting bits in one shot and stuff. The captains are still as badass as ever 8D But i kinda miss the arrancars :X

OH!

And i was trying out the ouran live drama yesterday :X It was pretty disgusting...couldn't get past 10min @_@

I mean...while Honey is still appropriately tiny, he looks OLD! So basically the whole act-cute thingy is plain disgusting :XXX couldn't watch it after that :S Mori looked like a stone statue the whole time :/ i mean...i know he's supposed to be stoic, but geeez. just made me think of the badly-acted Jasper from Twilight as well. meh.

Oh and i heard Skip Beat's live drama is pretty bad too :O with strange dubs or whatnot...shall try it and give a verdict xD

27 December 2011

tis the training program for the Ministry School:

  • Fasting Prayer
  • Spiritual Journaling
  • Praise & Worship
  • Character Formation
  • Spiritual Warfare & Breaking Bondages
  • Calling & Destiny
  • Conflict Resolution
  • Jewish Roots
  • Exposition of Song of Solomon
  • Fear of the Lord
  • The Journey of Israel
  • The Joy of Personal Bible Study
  • The Art of Preaching & Teaching
  • Hearing God’s Voice
  • Mentoring
  • The Person & Work of the Holy Spirit
  • Exposition of the Book of Romans
  • Developing the Leader Within You
  • The Heart of the Leader
  • Apologetics
  • Missions
  • Engaging Evangelism

Now that i've really and truly decided to go for it, i'll be really disappointed if my supah-late entry doesn't get in >__<

Oh well, if it's His will, then so be it [:



Also,



Here's a Christmas card for everyone :D (belated heh)

Good job on staying non-emo!~ Have a very happy and non-emo new year~


So today (or kind of yesterday), some of us put on pretty dresses and met up at Orchard :D

The original plan was to walk around and see the lights...

We...walked around...Orchard Central's rooftop garden xD

It's the first time i've been there, and while it's not anything grand or whatnot, the height makes it fun and the company makes it even better ^^

So we camwhored

and pretended to be supermodels :P

And it was even more fun than prom :X

25 December 2011

Oh wait, i forgot :X

MERRY XMAS! :D


scouz and me (well it was xmas on her side already but nvm) just welcomed xmas with a load of angst and depression...

Sasuke y u do diz? DD:

Yes i'm an otaku.

We decided to enter the ball of angst and relive the supersuper heartwrenching moment of sasuke and naruto's battle :S

This was done after a debate on whether Sasuke would die by the end of the series...

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

/speechless.

-curls up in a ball and rolls around-

For the other otakus, do you not remember naruto ep 134 // chap 233? ;A;

24 December 2011

Every time my mom decides to plan a gathering and invite people over, she goes into a frenzy of the-house-must-be-spotless-to-be-presentable!

It grates against my messy roll-about ENFP self >:(

She gets into so much stress planning these things (not to mention the stress to people around her :O) that i wonder if it's better if she doesn't do the planning :S


"When God says yes, you know you'll have to do it" - Des

:XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX


Alright, as i obviously don't use planners well enough, i shall organise my schedule here :]

23rd - Joshua's (not the person) Xmas Party AWESOMEZ
24th - Last min xmas shopping/PBG meeting
25th - church and maybe YA gathering? maybemaybemaybe. oh and m'sian relatives will be here.
26th - Dress-night-out
27th - Planning-still-in-progress outing with the church gals *badminton-lunch-sing* 8Db
28th - Youth alpha meeting/childhood friends gathering?! D: [this will take some maneuvering]
29th - Xue's bday
30th - FREE (i think and hope)
31st - M'sia new year gathering

Alright that's all for the year and for the time being, i believe (:

wow...i really have something on everyday @_@

21 December 2011

Hello!

Because of camp, i feel like i haven't been home for a very very very long time :X

See? 3 + 5 = 8 days away from home! :O (the few hours at home didn't really count)

OK I'M LAZY AND I WANT FOOD.

BLOG BOUT STUFF WHEN I'M NOT LAZY [:

17 December 2011



ahh...leaving camp always makes me feel so sad...especially cos it's usually a good 4 days...what more only 3days this year and i have to leave early and miss some fun :(

either ways, will blog bout camp and God's glory a little later [:

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ADVERT SPACE:

YOUTH ALPHA
4 FEB (SAT) 3-5 PM
COME AND DISCOVER THE MEANING OF LIFE [:

12 December 2011

Reminder to self:
PREP DEVO BY TONIGHT.
Make "SPIRITUS" in pretty letters and cut out
Work harder on thinking of camp cheers (help anyone?)

Things to bring for camp (the extra bits that i need to remember...):
Styrofoam cups (at least 10, about 12)
Coloured pens/markers
"SPIRITUS" name thingy [note above]
My brain.

There was something else i wanted to add but i forgot ._.

11 December 2011

Hello! Little Miss Awkward is back from Karimun, Indonesia! :D

For those who don't know where Karimun is, it's one of the Riau Islands - Batam, Bintan, Tanjong Pinang, Karimun! :D

This was a really, really enriching trip, and i'm glad i decided to go. Even though it was less than 48 hours, and it feels like we didn't do much there, it still feels like quite a lot of time was spent there.

As with Setapak, somehow i feel like, even though we go there to support the ministry, we end up being blessed in so many other ways, and receiving so much as well.

The simplicity of the people allows their faith and love to shine through so much more than it does here in Singapore. And it allows us to be blessed by this spiritual richness they have. For example, even though their church seems small - like only a consisting of a few families - and also seems to have more children than adults, their hearts are so sincere for God that it's really amazing to listen to their praise and worship.

Okay, so let's get the pictures rolling, and let them to the talkin'~ :D

This is how they refill petrol over in Karimun 8Db bottles and bottles of petrol put through a funnel and a tube into the car :3

Beautiful sky on the way to the village

Sheila the storyteller :D - Noah's Ark with the awesome picture book!

Some of the kids acting as animals (to go 2 by 2 into the ark xD)

Running 2 by 2 as animals :D

Are they not cute? ^w^

Us, outside the townhall where we conducted the children's program. While we were playing with the children, the adults were giving gift packs to the various village families.

This was really kampong style and it was a really interesting experience. The kids were so enthusiastic and cheerful, so it was really fun with them (: Although we had to simplify the program we thought up, it was still really enjoyable to see all the smiles on the children's faces ^^

Unfortunately i didn't think of bringing my camera to the service :( [this was held in town, by the way] It was amazing, so many people turned up (they catered a bus for the villagers and all) and managed to fit into the shophouse. It was really, really, really, hot though, despite the fans @_@ Like, when it had ended and we went outside, it was like aircon haha xD

There was this interesting activity during the christmas outreach where everyone had a candle, and we passed the flame around so all the candles were lit. I guess it's some sort of christmas tradition? But i'd always thought the candle lighting thing was some Hanukkah thingamajig... But perhaps it's the symbolism of passing the "light" on?

After we got back to the hotel [which by the way, is right next to the ferry terminal 8D which makes it the 'safest' cos you can just leave if anything happens] we went to see the 'shopping street'. It was here where awkward girl became even more awkward due to her inability to drink cold stuff :( ohwell.

And we got to see the lunar eclipse (or the recovering of the moon at least xD) especially pretty due to the clear night sky :D

Tis was the strange moon we all noticed. You can't see the redness from the pic :(

By the time supper was over it had become brighter xD and Melyn wanted to see it full :D from here you can see that there's still a bit more to go. So we wanted to wait it out. (well, me and Melyn did at least, Sheila was falling asleep and Joel and Jun Yuan were talking physics stuff ._.)

Pitch black :( (you can see the clouds if you look closely) The clouds ate the moon before it was full, so we had to give up. A pity, though...it was just a teeeeny bit left :S

Our finished supper xD (you can see Sheila sleeping in the bg :P)

Food in Karimun was delicious d*w*b yuuum :D The bak ku teh was nomz and slurpz :D haha But the kitty cats there are scary, like waiting under the table to prey on the food x_X. there was a cat that just sat under the table staring at us (taking turns lol) meowing piteously :O

Last pic was from my phone, cos i neglected to bring my camera for sunday service as well :X oh the woes of forgetting to bring a small carrying pouch... cute lil boy sleeping xDD the kids are really cute! He's sleeping on this little girl's lap, but the girl's not his sister or anything. They're like one big family [: The night before there was this little boy sleeping on the floor in the middle of a sea of people as well hahaha :P

TTFN :D

(yes, i know i said something bout prom pics, but i is lazy. Relevant pictures are on fb.)

Next up, YPM camp >:] i can so do diz :D

09 December 2011

Okay~ i'm BACK from prom~ :D (i have no idea why i caps-ed the 'back', but anywsy~)

I might be a sleepy drunk. Not that i'm drunk, but i'm feeling sleepy, but i think it's also the dry eyes from the contacts. Okay, so i digress.

Prom was....amusing, mainly. TJ boys are like a bunch of overgrown kids, or apes. Whichever you like better. And...well, the prom felt a leeetle like a formal-styled orientation :X

But nevertheless, it was pretty fun :P especially how they managed to somehow include everyone into getting high, lol xD

I liked our table a lot :D Semi nua, semi do-our-best :D

Food was...so-so.

Drinks after was pretty nua :P

Didn't get to camwhore too much.

Ohwell.

The more unglam pics (and a few other nice ones) will be posted here tmr...(if i'm not too lazy.

So toodledoo~

Gotta wake up at 8ish tmr :( Reach church by 10. Plsplspls lemme wake up on time.

WAN ANZ WORLD

07 December 2011

I am Little Miss Scatterbrain-Forgetful :(

There is this recent trend of me definitely leaving something at a friend's house when i visit.

1. eye liner at Sherri's
2. Nail polish bag at Gen's
3. library book at Xue's

:(

In other news,

YESSSSYESYESYESYESSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!! TMR I DON'T HAVE TO GO OUT OMG YESSSSSSSSS! (well except at night, but that doesn't count, cause i'll hardly need to walk :O)

i am so sick and tired of going out and walking and standing! D:

I am NUACAKES! D: I NUA.

Alright then, on to nua-ing til tmr 8D

WAKE UP AT 11+ OHYEAH~

06 December 2011

I realise that prom has totally lost all its magic, especially when compared to the excitement everyone had from Sec 4.

But then again, the excitement probably still exists for those who didn't go for their sec 4 proms.

I guess everything's just been disenchanted.


wow!

Eh, Joel (vice chair for camp) just called to ask how the meeting with Joseph went :O

That was actually nice to know that my uhm...'mentioning' of the problem did help a little :X although there's little i can do about it that isn't 'tattling' :X

Ohkay, haha but i feel that i've ranted bout the irresponsible brat enough, so i shall fill this space with happy stuff ^^

Like how i'm really looking forward to the Karimun mission trip :D The kids activity meeting today went really well, and i think the team going is a group i can really get along with :D

Respect up for quite a few more ppl in church ^^

Hm-mm....hopefully i don't botch up xue's nails tmr :P

05 December 2011

At least i'm feeling better now >_<

haiz.



Not exactly what describes my mood now, but it struck me how apt it described my mood a few weeks back.


URGH. i'm gonna write about happy stuff for therapy, but i'm just so damn pissed off right now. It's just been an accumulation of stupid stupid things today. I'm so so tired, and the stupid irresponsible idiot had better turn up tomorrow.

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Happy things. Happy things.

1. Shirley Goh's daughter was super cute
2. We had a good chat time while Aza had to skip
3. Time at Jia's house was really fun.
4. Playing with curlers was really fun.
5. Jia is awesome at tying hair.
6. Study lounge in National Library is nice and peaceful.

Ohdang. nothing else happy. Am breathing, but still pissed. meh.

Gonna drown self in music now :/


At first, it was gonna be "i'm not happy", but now, i'm downright pissed. Everything after 3.45 today has been horrendous and downright terrible. This is really ridiculous.

First, my wonderful AL takes irresponsibility to a new level. Not turning up, not answering calls, and "forgetting" to inform me he couldn't make it to the meeting when just two hours ago, his sms reply had the obvious implication of him being able to make it. Note, this meeting was postponed by him once already.

Next, i just don't know, but sometimes, talking to my mom is like talking to a wall, except that i don't expect walls to listen to me. Other times, talking to her is like talking to a pre-recorded tape, where answers don't make sense and feel like they're just said as a standard answer.

Not only that, idk why but i'm really sian about the dress. I feel fat in it, but i can't be bothered to look for another one anyway.

Then i come home.

And i go to my room.

And i find my table freaaaaking empty. Like, cleared of the organised mess i left it in this morning.

WTS. What gives my maid the right to touch my stuff and rearrange them? Now i don't know if i'm missing stuff, because she's just chucked them all somewhere where i have to search for them myself. Seriously? I don't care if she's some neat freak who can't stand to see a table messy. It's MY table. MY things. I can keep it whatever way i want.

Not only that, by rearranging the stuff, she's also taken stuff OUT of plastic bags they were in. WHAT THE CRAP?! THAT MEANS SHE'S TOUCHING MY STUFF. SOME STUFF BELONG IN THE PLASTIC BAG. Now the plastic bags the stuff were in is like gone for good. Good job, dobby, good job. Freaking never enter my room again.

I'm never letting her into my room again. I'll just clean the floor myself and whatnot. It's not like i'm not used to that.

Shit lah. Seriously, i'm so pissed that i'm even messing up my table on purpose. See what she does about that. wts. seriously.

Can this day get any worser?

And all this crap after a good morning and afternoon spent with Jia and Aza. SERIOUSLY?

04 December 2011

I need to start looking for a job :( /lazy.

But meanwhile, this is how my busy december is like.

8 - Prom
10-11 - Karimun mission trip
14-17 - church camp
17-22 - annual holiday w/childhood friends
23 - Xmas walk in orchard?
29 - (around this date?)
31 - m'sia new year celebration

and from now til feb, prep for youth alpha before it commences [:

So within this week itself, i'll need to plan for the kids program with the others, and begin thinking of ideas for publicity for youth alpha with aza. (oh, and games as well?) ALSO prom prep @_@

Which speaking of such, i'm very very tired of walking and shopping and going out @_@ my feet HURT. big time.

Why? D:

Thurs -> walked in heels for like the whole afternoon and some of the night
Fri -> Ice skating followed by walkwalkwalking the rest of the day til like at night
Sat -> Well, this was actually ok XD
Sun -> Walk walk walking in city plaza xD

Not that it wasn't interesting to unearth stuff in city plaza, and meet up with friends, but i'm just sooo tired. my feet ache so much...

Oh uhm, and back to the earlier topic, for this week i also have to prep the camp stuff :X (Angel Mortal board)

wheee...

so i'm actually ok with all these commitments, only that this week might be a little hard to chew on x_x

This week = SUPAH BEEZEE

Other than that, i'm looking forward to the rest of Dec ;)


Alright...my brain hurts D:

(well not really, it's probably due to my headphones...)

But zomg...

Just watched this mindblowing movie...

@_@

Exam (2009)

My advice is not to watch it late at night if you're easily scared like me :X Watching with a friend might be good too xD (though not neh, cos neh makes sad movies not sad)

rawr @_@

03 December 2011

So, my dad just hinted that i was going to become fat, just because i was eating a pack of cheezels :(

My mom asked strange questions like "did you do it yourself?" WRT my nails (which is nonsensical, cos when i came home last night they were still colourful, so maybe she assumes that i went to sleep and elves did them for me.)

Yes, today is such a good day :(

Ok, idk why i'm moping, but it might be because of the $$$ i burned yesterday and i still feel damn pain.

pain pain pain :( my mom often expresses her disapproval at something i buy by refusing to subsidise :X eg: my schoolbag, and the hoodie she wouldn't get :(

lunch wasn't nice either...i felt like i was being compared to my grand uncle's kids...who are, btw younger than me ._.

meh.

but yesterday was really fun (:

SIGH.

02 December 2011

ok, so so much for wanting to play with my nails all through these 8 months :X

it's obviously not healthy for my nails D:

After prom, i'll let my nails grow healthily for awhile again hehe.

01 December 2011

Today was a good good day~ :D

It was like, a non-stress relaxing shopping kinda thing :D

only that my feet hurt now :( and they're gonna hurt more tmr...:X

Starbucks 1-for-1 frappe :D and random shopping ftw!~


omg...i just had the creepiest dream ever. It was seriously creepy ttm. I'm still scared D: And it's not the nightmare-shivering scared, but just the zomg-what-just-happened?! scared @_@

brrr...

And i'm not someone who remembers dreams often.

First, i dreamt that i was in ypm camp. It was very odd, cos the whole clique was there (except the ppl who are in UK omg LOL!) and then the church ppl were there too (but not all) and there were also a lot of random people we didn't know...and a couple of TJ ppl?

So there were games and typical camp stuffs, fun and rainbows (sunshine before the storm D:). After the game, there were some weird instructions, and for some reason the camp "Group leaders" (though i didn't know who a bunch of them were) stayed back to clean up o_O

Oh, and my AL also changed to some random girl i've never seen before. And apparently joseph ho never contacted any of the guys (which is part of real life translating into dream) Which also made me go "WAIT, WHAT? IT'S CAMP ALREADY?!" and say that "it can't be!" cos the 2nd dec hasn't come yet, and like...IT HADN'T I CAN'T REMEMBER IT D: and i was also thinking "NUUU I CAN'T HAVE MISSED THAT OUTING D:" which also stemmed from because i was thinking about bugging joseph ho about camp stuff in church this sat (cos he didn't reply my msg -_-)

yea.

And that's where the creepiness began...it just got creepier.

So like we went to sleep, and woke up the next day, and there were people MISSING @_@ like seriously. The whole clique and a whole load of other people weren't there...

That was the point i was pondering aloud the confusions of um...3 paragraphs above. And someone, a friend, told me, that "yes, i did miss 2nd dec, it's definitely over" and that "the world is ending, we're all dead" and "strange huh, we have to dream of A's" (all though i don't get that, cos it was nothing really about A's :X) and then also said that the people who were missing have "woken up" - i.e. really died. And at that point i was just like "wth?! nooo...it means they wake up! in reality! D: and like soo "die" in this world is waking up in reality!" [INCEPTION MUCH?!]

The person also said something like everyone missing 2nd dec as well, cos it's like, they just never woke up when the alarm rang...and not the alarm of the next day and the next next day either.............

Around here, things really weren't making sense, cause there was some strange musical and weird thingamajigs.

And i forced myself to "wake up". Like, literally forced xP

Oh, and it was like 13 dec or something D:

To my relief, i saw Aza (although i wondered why i wasn't in my room), and then we talked or something about the strangeness of it all, and then started playing with butterfly kites?!?!?!?!

I was also still trying to assess that it was impossible to sleep for that long, cause no matter how long a dream seems, it can still occur in very short periods of time in your brain, cos your brain is that smart :X

Then i got awoken by an sms...

And i woke up for real, and got super freaked out. Super duper freaked out. @_@

(well, i didn't wake up to my original alarm, yes)