ARGH. if you're so unhappy that i'm asking you to do things like collect printing, then don't insist you'll go after i say i'll go.

2:45 PM ·

Thanksgivings

Hello! Since i'm relatively free tonight (oh wait, it's past 12 lol!), there's finally gonna be a saner post :P

All in all it was a crazy tiring week, but i survived! Not getting my bids was a great downer, but /lesigh life goes on.

Today was exhausting. Honestly, i didn't stay up last night lol. I went to get food because i was hungry (honestly i'm gonna either lose weight or gain weight by the end of this term...my meal periods are so sporadic it's very unhealthy) and then decided that i might as well go and sleep and wake up early to work on the ppt. Which i managed to! (yay!) Especially since report still has one week to go, so i can shelve it for now and concentrate on presentation.

Meeting was actually productive, but frustrating, because the Law guy who finally showed up suddenly realised that our findings are a little skewed and off our current topic. So we had to tweak the question. Suddenly all the confusion that everyone was facing (and directing at me - which was like blind leading blind) began to clear a little. But the problem now is that 2 days before our presentation we have to tweak our writings to the new question. Ahh...

Then CT...it was exhausting...and it was supposed to be the fun meeting.

It's a long story, but basically. Most groups are doing scrapbooks for their report. Our group was just going to do a normal one. Which, honestly, i didn't mind very much, because there's so little time and so much due, and scrapbooks are leche. And even though fun, knowing my group dynamics, i was quite sure they'd rather not.

But suddenly, when finding pics for the report with B, B suggested doing a scrapbook. Surprising though, because B (good friend he might be) has not really wanted to spend time on CT. I mean, you know if one person doesn't want it affects the mood right? Not that he was the only one though. But i digress. So i was like hey, it'll be fun, if someone who doesn't want wants to, then we can pull another person who wants to do so and get it done. Chop chop and fun fun!

Unfortunately, it's ended up being me having to coordinate everything -.- Which is kind of annoying seeing as he's the one who suggested it? And if he wanted to do it he jolly well should carry it out? It's frustrating, because he tells me things like "oh, i should have spent more time on CT, i realised i didn't and it's too late and i feel bad" and at first i'm like "chill, CT is a half mod it's ok" and when searching for pics he's like on fb (which i honestly don't care) and he sees me searching and is like "omg i'm such a slacker, i'm so sorry, i'll do work now" and i have to be like "CHILL!" and this is repeated quite a lot of times until i'm pre-tty miffed. But it's still ok, i'm not that tired yet.

Anyway a lot of complicated things which he like blur blocked through and apologised to and we end up with today. First, we arranged to meet at 2, because S can't do morning and i couldn't 12-2. And after 2 i called him and he was like "oh, i'm in a class now...i wanted to meet earlier because i had something on in the afternoon today" and you couldn't tell me yesterday because? "I'm so sorry! I'll be there by 3!" /lesigh.

He turned up at 4+ and S who came at bout 2.45 had to leave at bout 5.30? /bigsighbigbigsigh

And then came the whole line of "i'm sorry"s which were just frustrating after awhile, because it was like there's no time for a pity party dude, stop apologising and get working. Seriously.

Then i ask him to msg a group mate to do something (something the groupmate may not want to do) and he's like "can you stop asking me to do things?" frankly, i was quite peeved over that, so i did it myself anyway. Not really a good reflection imo...

I mean, as a friend, i listen to his downs quite a bit, and it's fine, but seriously, isn't it tiring to live life in pessimism? Isn't it better to leave the past behind and forge forward with a smile or at least determination? He looks so tired from being pessimistic and it tires me even more -.-

Anyway, explanation over, and ALL IZ WELL~

Or more like, all is not that bad. I do have thanksgivings! (:

And so, this week i thank God for...
1. A pretty good CT presentation
2. Satisfactory D24 vid and learning reflection vid
3. Friends i can whine to when i'm really tired and fed up <3 p="p">4. Friends to be stupid with and friends who make you laugh
5. Not having to do BGS presentation this week
6. CT scrapbook looking good
7. Ending CT officially tmr!
8. CT group is still willing to do work, it's not like i must tank like for BGS.
9. FA group allows me to slack off. (I mean one guy was offering to do everything for the group O_O) I got to choose the easy question! :D heh.
10. Getting my LTB bid.
11. The book of Jeremiah is actually really good. Quite a revelation! :D
12. Chill econs project and good group.

God is good and he's been with me. While i don't think my stats and FA quizzes went that well, my projects are moving along. Bumpy, perhaps, but moving. It's the process that counts and i know that after all the ranting and moaning and groaning, after the projects are finally over, i will safely say that the process was a good experience.

Good night world! (i think this is the earliest i've slept this week! o_o)

12:30 AM ·